SICK


Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.- 2 Corinthians 4:16-18

It’s so easy that when life is hard then that means it will always be this way.

Something I’m not sure I’ve ever talked about, but had accepted for so long:

I will always be sick.

Since the summer before 8th grade I’ve battled with a mysterious condition that causes dangerous, extreme swelling, fatigue and weakness. There’s other symptoms that often seem random, although they’re constant. Doctors are still unsure exactly what it is, but after 13 years they’ve narrowed down the options to this: They believe it’s tied to an autoimmune disorder, although they can’t officially diagnose me with anything. What they are certain of is that my body is constantly attacking itself. It's why my hands are always cold, why I’m tired a lot, why I get chest pain, why I'm 26 with hip pain and why even one day of extreme stress, discouragement, or anxiety, can send my immune system into chaos. During these 13 years of battling with this on and off, I began to believe that I will always be this way. I got so used to the supplements, medicines, blood tests, doctor visits, that I thought this was all there is.

I don’t know what you’re facing. But none of our situations are hopeless. The situations I am and that you’re going through can definitely make a turn around. But, even if they don’t, this present suffering is just a moment in light of the perfection that awaits us eternally in heaven.

So while I’m here on Earth, in a body that is wasting away, God is much greater than the pain, the fatigue, the swelling I deal with daily. He is with me and will be glorified in me regardless of whether I have a pain-free day or the most painful one. Him being glorified in and through me has very little to do with him healing me physically and everything to do with my faith and trust in him that allows me to live me life with joy and peace, even when I'm doubled over in pain.

So here’s the truth:

I won’t always be sick

And you won’t always be [insert present suffering here]

There’s hope.

#journey

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