Hi everyone! I know I have been completely missing for a couple of months and I want to be completely transparent about why I haven't been blogging much. One of the reasons was that in September we found out some super exciting news!
Sept 14: I actually found out I was expecting that day and I surprised Micah with this message!
My first trimester was pretty tough and I struggled with a lot of fatigue and morning, noon, and night sickness. However, even with those challenges, I must admit that was not the full reason I stopped writing. To be honest, I stopped because I was worried about the growing public hostility to authentic teachings on the Christian faith. I was nervous about how it could negatively impact my job, I was nervous about being misunderstood and/or ostracized.
Preparing for motherhood has given me a lot to think about. Some of them being how I want to raise my children and the example that I want to be for my kids. As I reflected over these past 6 months of pregnancy, I realized that only modeling a private, but not public faith to my kids, has never and will never be my desire. I want my child to see me and their father live bold, consistent PRIVATE and PUBLIC lives for Christ.
In trying to please people and please the world, I made idols and neglected who I should be pleasing the most. I feel pretty embarrassed to admit that in many ways I began to value my job, comfortability, and people's opinions over the important work of evangelism, discipleship and overall just living in the will of God.
So I've confessed that to God and I've repented. I have been intentional about my time with the Lord, and drawing from his word, so that I can be bold. I've returned to teaching small group, I've begun to talk more openly about my faith and share the love and gospel of Jesus Christ with others again. I'm slowly starting to pick up the pen and write again.
The blog will be back up and running starting this month. Pray for me as I continue to work on a book that I've let sit dormant for a while (it's much different than the other stuff I've written and I think that's a good thing).
I hope that this post also challenges anyone else who has hid their light under a bushel. Our days here on Earth are too short for that. With the life that you have left, live for Christ.
Then he said to them all:“Whoever wants to be my disciple must deny themselves and take up their cross daily and follow me. For whoever wants to save their life will lose it, but whoever loses their life for me will save it. What good is it for someone to gain the whole world, and yet lose or forfeit their very self? Whoever is ashamed of me and my words, the Son of Man will be ashamed of them when he comes in his glory and in the glory of the Father and of the holy angels.